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I feel so bad today. Headache. Sinus pressure behind my eyes and and a nose that never stop running. My ears are clogged and I don't have an appetite. Is this what you do to me Cedar? Or is it something else? I have an appt. on Feb. 9th with an ENT for my swollen lymph nodes on the left side of my neck and jaw. I have been freaking myself out because a lot of my symptoms have been that of Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I know it's stupid to think that, but with enlarged lymph nodes that haven't gone back to normal in over six months, you start to worry a bit. I've been through a couple rounds of antibiotics that haven't done anything. They stay the same size.

Now my GP wants me to go to an ENT. What a great sign if he can't figure out what's wrong.

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My retardedness can now be explained in one image.

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I guess this was as good as I could get for a physical representation of how my mind goes off when I get an idea or put my mind to something. It explodes with color and I become almost electric and have one track mind on how to achieve that goal. That's what happened when I decided to go to another country for the first time. It's how I jumped onto the English teacher bandwagon. It's how I continued to keep searching for an English teacher position in Japan. I have this sense of completing something once I start it. I hate leaving things half finished or have a failure.

Ha. I just wrote that as I looked over to my left at my unfinished portrait of River Phoenix. (foot in mouth)

:)

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View on Black

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Yes, lame I know. It's not original and not by me. But it was a fun thing I did with my friend Rockie. We had a silly and amazing time laughing our butts off at the "happy" and "angry" emotions you can put on your face. It's rather hilarious.

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Roy G. Biv

I'm feeling very uninspired the past week or so. Ideas are coming to me, but they all require a real studio set up or real lights. It's also too cold to do some pictures outside that I'd like to try. Or maybe I should stop being a wuss and just go out there and deal with it. I have an idea of a picture I want to do, but I have no idea how to execute it. I dunno. Hopefully my artistic side of me will push into gear soon.

This was a rather dull and lame 365. C'mon brain, you can do better than this.

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This is the result I get from my ghetto rigged studio. Not too bad. A few little tweaks on the background to make it a bit more uniform, but otherwise, I didn't do much to this photo at all. The lighting actually worked out all right for this one.

+ Great Grandma's 1920's beads and vintage 70's dress make glamming up fun...

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This is where I set up my ghetto rigged "studio." It's a piece of large felt layed over a non-working fluorescent light. Then I have to position two free standing lamps to how I want them to light while making sure nothing catches fire. I've got like 3 feet in which to work because the chair and couch in the garage are just a step away. If I put the fan in the wrong place, it'll blow the felt down. It's awesome ghetto rigging all this stuff. Sometimes nothing comes out of it, but sometimes it actually works.

I'd like some real studio lights one of these days, but I doubt that will happen in the near future.

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I do love where I work. I'm surrounded by the things I love the most.

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RIP Clint Tee. I can't wear it anymore because it's become so threadbare and if I risk any washes from now on, it could be torn to pieces. So, I'm putting it away to only wear it on special occasions. But, what occasions would that be? I love you Clint tee.

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Lazy Sunday.

Top Albums of the 00' decade

So, I'm going to be honest and say that this list is going to be very limited and dominated by Muse. I dunno what it is about me, but music is a hard area for me to open up to, if those are the right words to explain what I mean. It's usually songs I latch on to, not albums. When I find a band I love, I run it into the ground. I know I do that, but I can't help it. I guess I don't have anyone exposing me to music I really would enjoy that isn't crap played on the radio. I'm really picky though, so I don't know. I'm stuck in the general decades of the 80's and 60's. I'm just not being exposed to the right things I guess. So hear they are in no particular order.  


Muse - Origin of Symmetry 2001 Bliss 
White Stripes - White Blood Cells 2001 We're going to be friends 
Kylie Minogue - Fever 2002 (yes, Kylie. I love Kylie and let's leave it at that) In Your Eyes 
Muse - Hullabaloo (technically many B-sides and live recordings) 2002 The Gallery 
Goldfrapp - Black Cherry 2003 Ooh La La 
Muse - Absolution 2003 Hysteria 
Arcade Fire - Funeral 2004 Wake Up 
Muse- Black Holes and Revelations 2006 Knights of Cydonia 
Bat for Lashes - Fur and Gold 2006 What's a Girl to do? 
Joanna Newsom - Ys 2006 Emily Part 1

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I always get the "don't leave me' look from my pup if I take a shower. It usually means I'm leaving or going to work.

 

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This New Year's ended up being a pretty good one. I've had some blah ones the past few years, but this one made up for those crappy ones. We started the night out at Stephen's friends where we could see the fireworks over Lady Bird Lake. We took a lot of photos goofy photos with sparklers, but that was the fun of it.

Then we went to my high school friend PJ's house and I had a blast. It's always good to see old friends and shoot the shit with them. Little did I know, we took a look at the clock and saw it was 5:30am and we knew we probably should go considering our hosts kindly obliged us until then. I thought it was

pretty cool that we ended up being the last to leave the house because I got to really talk to PJ and Brittany.

I had a good time. I hope they did too.

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