256/365 dirty smear

For some reason I just feel like this photo. Dirty, unkempt, messy. Not sure why.

I realized today that I can't NOT do photoshop. I intend on shooting photos to find my place with natural photos and them turning out as good as they can be, but I think I'm going to continue on with what I've been doing.

I like creating false worlds. Or images that cannot be produced naturally. It makes me feel the most creative. It's not me to force myself into not playing with photoshop. I feel like i've gotten better with PS within the last 256 days. I want to continue on that path. It makes me feel like I'm doing something or achieving a personal goal. It may not be like everyone else's, but it's mine.

I think restricting what I shoot is just not in any way a smart idea. I got to edit the wonderful alibubba's photo today and what came out was something that surprised myself. I never thought that I could make an image like that ever. But, I did. So, I know some people like seeing more natural photos, but it's just not me or my complete style.

255/365

Like I said before, here is a wonderful sitting shot again. I need some cool wardrobe or something to make these images more interesting. I wanted to do some contortion or lay upside down, but I was right next to an extremely busy intersection. I didn't exactly feel like dealing with the stares and honks from strangers in their cars. Until I get some balls, this is what you get. :)

254/365

It's my little devil dog! I have a feeling the photographs for the next few days are just random sitting shots in somewhat interesting places. (I guess?) That's all fine and dandy. My little pup is the star of this and the last photograph. I think leaving her behind is going to be the thing that breaks my heart the most. If i'm traveling where she can't go, I find myself waking up in the middle of the night reaching around for her. She's usually cuddled up right in the nook between my neck and my legs when I'm in the fetal position. Yeah, that's right. My dog and I spoon. 

So, all tests came back normal. I'm officially at ease in my mind about everything that involves my health. I can't believe what stress will do to you. My dr. said that stress sometimes mimics very serious diseases and yet it's all some stupid reaction your body is having towards any event that may be causing you some unnecessary worries. I guess a move to another country isn't exactly an unnecessary worry.

The good news is that the 4 medications I have to take with me are going to be a lot cheaper than I had thought. Since my job doesn't offer insurance, I was expecting to pay at least $700 for 13 month prescriptions for all my medications. Well, thanks to HEB and Walmart, it's a whopping $296. Trust me, that's uber good. God bless those $4 medications. 

253/365

I'm so glad I'll be getting out of the environment I'm in now in a couple of months. When one person at your job makes you want to hit them in the face every time you see them, you know it's time to go. The one thing I know I can be happy about is I know this person is just a bitter and jealous human being that can only take out his frustrations on other people. He moves from person to person. I feel sorry for the next girl he decides to make enemies with. It's rather strange he picks fights with only women at our job. I wonder if he has some mommy issues. Maybe she didn't let him suck on her tit long enough. 

252/365

I'm getting stuck. I feel like I'm not progressing right now in my photoshop skills. I'm doing the same things over and over again. I'm seeing some amazing things happening over in Me through your eyes and I feel like I must know the ways in which these people create such magic. I was really proud of my Castle in the Sky photo I did for Joel, but it's only one gem that has come out of a lot of rough images.
I need to find more tutorials and get my butt in gear.
But, besides my whininess, that group is so incredible!! 

Me through your eyes

Currently on Flickr, I'm involved with a group called "Me through your eyes." It's an amazing group where you trade photos and process them. Then you share your final product with your partner and share it to the group. I've met some amazing people and have had some amazing images given back to me. Here are my partners and the examples of what the final products have been:

my process on @latent_image's photo.

@latent_image's process of my photo.

my process on colleen's photo.

Colleen's process on my photo

My process on theladymargaret's photo

My process on Joel's photo (Boy_Wonder) In a complete literal sense, this boy IS really wonderful at what he does.

Joel's process on my photo. (God, I love this one)

This group has been so much fun so far. 

Here's the link to the group if you are interested in checking it out:

Me through your eyes

251/365 Happy Momma's day

Spending time with my family on Mother's day is more important than taking a spectacular picture today. So, I edited to whatever.

Happy Mother's day!!

250/365 Only one person has this key

We drive each other insane sometimes, but how I love him.
Texture by Playingwithbrushes. 

249/365 high key

View On White

248/365 It is what it is

A tad enhanced, but it is what it is. Just me, no textures and nothing to hide
behind.

random fact. I hate my jaw. I got the "Steinhauser" jaw. It makes my face look chubby when I smile and it's a wide set jaw. I also have somewhat of a lazy left eye. I also have the most flat straight hair.
I dunno. Staring at yourself for more almost 250 days really starts to get to me. I see all of my imperfections. 

247/365 condiment fortress

I'm thinking of grouping all my cafe pictures together at the end of my 365. I dunno why I like the shots at cafes and eateries, but it's interesting to see how the environments differ. Especially when you sit down to eat food. It's just an idea being thrown around in my head.

246/365 "heavenly"

245/365 Such a bad headache

244/365 Preoccupied

My mind is still preoccupied with my health right now. Nothing has changed and I've noticed a few things that are not good signs. So, I keep waiting for my lab results. why why why.

243/365

This photo is indicative of my state of mind right now.