Monday, November 30, 2009
91/365
This is my completely unflattering up close picture of my face in an awkward pose. The most literal description ever.
I'm super tired. I have no idea why, but I feel exhausted.
A nap is in order.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
90/365
I'm super tired. So, this is the silliest one yet due to me just wanting to go crash out. I made my eyeball it's own planetary body. I guess those can be either two suns from far away or it has two bright stars orbiting it. The fact that I'm discussing the idea of my eyeball as part of an imaginary solar system is silly. I'm going to bed now.
Friday, November 27, 2009
89/365
Warning: scanning your face with you eye open leads to temporary pain and blindness in one eye. Don't do it. This one was fun to do though. I guess I owe that bad Elisha Cuthbert movie a nod for inspiration. Haven't seen it, but the buried alive thing doesn't seem very fun.
We went and saw New Moon tonight. I just want to smash my head into the wall continuously for hours knowing what these die hard twilight fans are going to see in the next film. A baby that eats her from the inside out and a werewolf that is 18 will choose a mate in her baby. Something is wrong with Stephanie Meyer. I read all the books on the planes to and from Japan last year. I left each book on the plane for whatever person got my seat after me. Hopefully they were delighted.
I have my nerdy obsessions, so I'm not going to judge the obsessive twihards. But, it's a bit unnerving they are so young and are looking to Edward Cullen as an attainable character in a man. That's the scary thing.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
88/365
mirror, mirror.
We saw Ninja Assassin tonight. More like Ninja Ass. Since when do ninjas whisper to each other when attacking someone? I thought they were supposed to be quiet and silent killers. They contradicted themselves so many times in that movie. The main guy was a part of the Ozunu clan. But, the main character lady kept saying Izunu. The sound EEEE and OHHH sound very different.
Stephen and I were joking that if the ninjas were gay, when they had their silent conversations and whisperings before killing someone, they could say things like "omg he is so not wearing that. Does he realize that makes his ass look fat?" Now say this line while whispering and speaking very fast. Yup, Stephen and I were being 10 years old and laughing our butts off.
There were so many bad one liners the MST3K people would have killed. One like "Did you like it when I stuck her?"
You are asking for it when you put that in a movie and during a "serious" scene.
87/365
86/365
Thanksgiving eve. I dunno if it was just me and my hypersensitivity to cold or if it WAS just super cold. Either way, I had to double jacket and blanket it up for this picture. I love the farm. It's best on quiet weekends. It's not that I don't love to see my family for the holidays, but it's a great escape when it's just you and the open sky.
Monday, November 23, 2009
85/365
Stephen will figure out how to work a still camera one of these days. He was surprised by the auto focus button. Ah, my award winning director. He knows a thing or two about film cameras, but not still ones. ??
He did get this good shot that's a bit soft. But, it conveys how much fun and how long it's been since i've done a handstand. Whew. That hurt after doing it for 2 minutes straight.
Hopefully third time's a charm
I'm once again on my way back to Japan with a starting date of February 2010 and onwards. I'm more hoping that placement doesn't come to me until March. I need that time to save some money, especially after I buy a plane ticket. I'm going with a company that has a good reputation by word of mouth and from just general googling, hasn't had any really big major red flags.
I've been promised a Kinki region placement which is even better. That is the area I wanted to go and honestly, if I hadn't found a company that would put me in that exact location, then I was going to just let the Japan thing die. If I hadn't gotten the job, I was going to let it go. It was this is it or this is when I say I'm done. It took me a year to get out of that slump that JET put me in. It was extremely difficult and the effect of failure or the general feeling of failing even though it wasn't your failure, but rather the company's, it still hurt.
So, I let the Japan thing go for a good year. But, it always stayed there at the back of my mind. Once again, after interviewing in San Francisco, I got the job. I was half expecting not to make the cut since I am "a bit reserved." Once I'm with a group of students though, I feel I can be lively. I hope so anyways. I'm not in the game completely yet though. I have to make it through training before I get the full go ahead.
I just hope I can forge some friendships at training that will help me through the year. I want to be able to have friends and people to talk to.
It's a broken record, but leaving behind my talented and lovely boyfriend and my baby dog is going to be extremely difficult. But, in a way, it's like asking Stephen not to make films. I have to do this. I have to try it out for at least the year that will be my contract. Then if the year is up and I can't stand it, I will come home feeling at least I did it. I did what I planned to do for so long. I'm getting much older and 30 is approaching much more quickly than I anticipated. It's kinda scary to think about it.
I'm 26, yet I feel like I have so much to learn. I have so much to do and take care of in my life.
My best friend Brandy wants a family and is already talking of kids. My friends from high school and childhood friends of mine are having children. I feel like "Should I be there too?" Is that where i'm supposed to be in my life? Am I or should I be focusing on a family right now? The answer for me is no. I don't have a job that would support me or a child. At this point, I'm too selfish to be responsible for another life right now. I still have dreams that have yet to be fulfilled for myself. I want to keep traveling. I want to see the world. If that's what the teaching route will give me, then so be it.
I want a job I love. I love Vulcan Video. It's like a family to me at that store. There are things about it that get frustrating, but it falls by the wayside because the job itself is so easy and the people I've met and the things I've experienced with Vulcan have been amazing. They are all good people at that store. I hope to be a vulcanite for life.
Leaving Vulcan too will be difficult. I left the store once for japan and when that didn't work out, they kindly let me back into the fold. I love them for it.
But, really. This is something I need to do and I'm excited and scared all over again. My reservations for what to expect are very low. I think I held JET to a high standard and that's where I went wrong.
So, I'm hoping this third time is the charm. Please God, let it be the time.
I've been promised a Kinki region placement which is even better. That is the area I wanted to go and honestly, if I hadn't found a company that would put me in that exact location, then I was going to just let the Japan thing die. If I hadn't gotten the job, I was going to let it go. It was this is it or this is when I say I'm done. It took me a year to get out of that slump that JET put me in. It was extremely difficult and the effect of failure or the general feeling of failing even though it wasn't your failure, but rather the company's, it still hurt.
So, I let the Japan thing go for a good year. But, it always stayed there at the back of my mind. Once again, after interviewing in San Francisco, I got the job. I was half expecting not to make the cut since I am "a bit reserved." Once I'm with a group of students though, I feel I can be lively. I hope so anyways. I'm not in the game completely yet though. I have to make it through training before I get the full go ahead.
I just hope I can forge some friendships at training that will help me through the year. I want to be able to have friends and people to talk to.
It's a broken record, but leaving behind my talented and lovely boyfriend and my baby dog is going to be extremely difficult. But, in a way, it's like asking Stephen not to make films. I have to do this. I have to try it out for at least the year that will be my contract. Then if the year is up and I can't stand it, I will come home feeling at least I did it. I did what I planned to do for so long. I'm getting much older and 30 is approaching much more quickly than I anticipated. It's kinda scary to think about it.
I'm 26, yet I feel like I have so much to learn. I have so much to do and take care of in my life.
My best friend Brandy wants a family and is already talking of kids. My friends from high school and childhood friends of mine are having children. I feel like "Should I be there too?" Is that where i'm supposed to be in my life? Am I or should I be focusing on a family right now? The answer for me is no. I don't have a job that would support me or a child. At this point, I'm too selfish to be responsible for another life right now. I still have dreams that have yet to be fulfilled for myself. I want to keep traveling. I want to see the world. If that's what the teaching route will give me, then so be it.
I want a job I love. I love Vulcan Video. It's like a family to me at that store. There are things about it that get frustrating, but it falls by the wayside because the job itself is so easy and the people I've met and the things I've experienced with Vulcan have been amazing. They are all good people at that store. I hope to be a vulcanite for life.
Leaving Vulcan too will be difficult. I left the store once for japan and when that didn't work out, they kindly let me back into the fold. I love them for it.
But, really. This is something I need to do and I'm excited and scared all over again. My reservations for what to expect are very low. I think I held JET to a high standard and that's where I went wrong.
So, I'm hoping this third time is the charm. Please God, let it be the time.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
79/365
I've been messing and picking at my fingers since I was in 2nd grade. It's not the prettiest thing to look at, but it's a part of me. It's deep seeded and I mess with my fingers sometimes without even realizing I'm peeling away a layer of skin. I've noticed my fingers are noticeably raw after an intense movie or especially before interviews and things of that nature. It's the way I let out stress and I really wish I could find a way to quite destroying my hands. I'll never have those pretty fingertips and french nails. Mine are always going to be gnarled and short. I've come to accept it.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
76/365
Friday, November 13, 2009
73/365
Biked the Golden Gate Bridge! We rode for about 5 hours into some small towns past the bridge and my butt hurt the entire day after. It was so beautiful considering the sky was clear and there was no fog the entire time I was there. It was such a great experience and catching up with Brandy was so much fun.
69/365
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
67/365
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
64/365
test. test. test.
My camera is so clean, crisp, and working like a dream. I'm just testing it out and having an almost like-new camera again. I didn't realize how sluggish and blurry it was. 2+ years of use and traveling to Japan and PA in the snow would probably do that. Glad to have my friend back and in top condition.
Looking on some of my older photos with it, I noticed that there were some graininess issues, but the main concern was that my autofocus was not working. Auto focus is your best friend when taking self portraits. It also seemed to have issues with color clarity that it used to have. That was the best $250 I've spent in a long time. I'm glad I finally had the initiative to take it in to get looked over. I mean, the thing has been in use constantly for the past 2 years at the least. It went to Japan in it's humid months, PA in it's snowy months, and countless other locations I can imagine have effected it.
I know. I'm writing about something that is boring and is a "duh" thing, but I can't get over how great it's working and looking now. I will learn my lesson from this and start taking my stuff in for regular cleanings. I wish I could do that with my mac.
I rely on it more than anything else. But, I bought a Terabyte HD about 6 months ago. Back your stuff up! If working at Apple taught me anything, it's to back up your stuff always. Back up everything. Spend that $100 for a good external HD. I guarantee you will not regret it.
blah. talky talky tonight.
Monday, November 2, 2009
63/365
Sunday, November 1, 2009
62/365
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